I am sitting by the pool right now. The last few days have been some of the most turbulent days of my life. They have been filled with all-time highs and all-time lows. I have been thinking about Daisy deeply as of late. Ever since the accident, all I can think about is her. I have truly realized that I need her in my life. I can’t imagine being without her. However, I must learn to face my fear of loneliness. It can not be cured how I hoped it would be. I have learned that you can’t recreate the past. I must learn to accept that the past is gone. I must learn to accept myself and not try to make my life a fantasy. I may start to do things more differently. Maybe I won’t live so lavishly. I don’t know how to fix this feeling. I don’t know if it will ever go away. It feels as if I have no one to talk to right now. Although I do know I’ve been thinking about this way too much right now, I need a break. Maybe I should use my pool for the first time. Yes, I think I will jump in for...