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My Last Thoughts


I am sitting by the pool right now. The last few days have been some of the most turbulent days of my life. They have been filled with all-time highs and all-time lows. I have been thinking about Daisy deeply as of late. Ever since the accident, all I can think about is her. I have truly realized that I need her in my life. I can’t imagine being without her. However, I must learn to face my fear of loneliness. It can not be cured how I hoped it would be. I have learned that you can’t recreate the past. I must learn to accept that the past is gone.  I must learn to accept myself and not try to make my life a fantasy. I may start to do things more differently. Maybe I won’t live so lavishly. I don’t know how to fix this feeling. I don’t know if it will ever go away. It feels as if I have no one to talk to right now. Although I do know I’ve been thinking about this way too much right now, I need a break. Maybe I should use my pool for the first time. Yes, I think I will jump in for a little, maybe even swim some laps.  

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  1. Tyler C.May 15, 2018 at 5:32 AM

    You killed my wife you son of a bitch! you killed her in cold blood, sending her mangled, lifeless body flying through the air. now i'm coming for you and i'm coming for blood. you spilled my wife's blood and now i'm coming to spill your blood all over the place. you better spend the rest of your days looking over your shoulders cause one day i will find you and i will kill you.

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